On a cold, wintry day in December 1994, my life changed forever. My world became eerily still. I was diagnosed with breast cancer. As Dr Kozlowski explained the specifics of my Illness the only word I heard was cancer.
I drove home in a haze. Sometimes I wonder how I even made it back safely. So many thoughts raced through my mind. Will the cancer spread; will I need a mastectomy or chemotherapy? Can I beat this? Why me? My unanswered questions left my soul searching.
As it was nearing Christmas, I chose not to share my grief with my family. I wanted their holiday season filled only with joy and happiness. Not the dread and helplessness I was experiencing.
Coupled with fear, I found my faith wavering. My prayers seemed like a fine, evaporating mist.
Then, one wintry afternoon while sitting In my room, it happened. He spoke two simple words to me, “Be still.” My prayers were answered. I felt His arms around me. My heart and soul were restored. The silence became pure, deep and meaningful. From that moment on, I emerged from my self-pity and desolation. I could face anything because He assured me I was not alone.
I had my mastectomy fourteen years ago and also went through breast reconstruction. It was difficult, but I knew He was with me through it all. I have been cancer free now for 14 years and even participated in a Race for the Cure.
So, my advice to anyone who is diagnosed with breast cancer: Keep the faith and know that He is with you…always.